It's very strange to be back home, because sometimes it feels as if I have never left. I have all these new experiences and friends but they are all some where different. It's almost like Narnia I suppose haha. It's nice to be home and be with family and friends. It's hard to know what to do next. I know the Lord will guide me. I just getting a little tired of hearing the question "so what are you going to do next?" It's not a bad question I just don't have a good answer so it frusterates me because I have always had a plan in my life and now I don't.
Since I've been back Ive been able to get a bit done like: getting my stuff organized, gardening, searching for apartments, searching for jobs -no luck on that one yet- enjoying having nothing to do :) watching a lot of movies, spending time with friends and family, and more errands.
It's really hard to put all my thoughts together. Before my mission I was really worried about leaving because somewhere deep in my heart I knew that things would never be the same. Not with friends, and not with life in general and that scared me. Now that Im home Im seeing how true that was, but as hard and sad as it is to let the past life go I know that something better is in store for me. I now get to apply all that patience I learned on my mission and just take things a day and a week at a time.
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Hey! You'll figure it out! I have faith in you! :) I'm so glad you are back...
Amen to what Carisa said! I think it's totally normal what you're feeling. And not just for someone who recently returned from a mission, but anyone who's going through a transition in life. Which, let's be honest...that's what life is! Transition from one phase to another! Anyway, I'm so glad you're home and I'm so glad that I have such fun memories to look back on =) I miss it too and will always laugh looking back. So glad you're back home and I can't wait to see all the exciting and fun things you'll be up to!
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